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Testing the email blog thing.
This way I can post from school :D
I stopped caring and stopped blogging, but I realized how much it helps me just relax and get everything out.
Today had to be one of the greatest days, for the most part.
Work for a change was amazingly awesome, it was hilarious, but slow, but it cheered me up. I kept feeling sad because of the news with Jake, but there was always a new joke or event going on that made me laugh.
Tuesday is his wake, and Wednesday is his funeral. It’s going to be really hard, it’s going to be difficult making myself go. I am going to see if I can find someone to go with, it’ll help the beginning part easier.
I work tomarrow, I hope it isn’t bad, I just hope it isn’t fast or slow, just goes by fast and easy.
I really need a better layout.
Rest in peace Jake, you’ll never be forgotten, you were are that awesome kid who could cheer any one up, light up a room when it was dim.
You’ll be missed, in my and our hearts, school won’t be the same this senior year, just as junior was void and blank.
I’ll miss you man, this shouldn’t have happened to you.
I didn’t want this to happen, yet I know he is probably better off, but it’s just so unreal, like it shouldn’t have happened. I always wanted him to come back he was seriously that one kid that could do anything and make you laugh, he didn’t deserve this.
So many things that I didn’t get to say
And you’re so far away
But in my heart you will stay
There are no goodbyes
And there is no regrets
I miss you today
And I’m not over it yet
I’ll see you soon again my friend
The times that we’ve shared been so genuine
Know that you had to go
But you’ll tell me where you’ve been
‘Cause I’ll see you soon again my friend
When I see you I’ll ask you, “Where have you been?”
There’ll be so much to say
We won’t know where to begin
We’ll skateboard all day
And we’ll drink all damn night
‘Cause I know we’ll meet up in the next life
I’ll see you soon again my friend
The times that we’ve shared been so genuine
Know that you had to go
But you’ll tell me where you’ve been
‘Cause I’ll see you soon again my friend
I think of sunny skies
And I know that you never wasted your time
I think of your laugh
And I think of your smile, and I cry
Waitin’ for the day I’ll see that smile on your face again
Holdin’ on to the memories
‘Cause brotherhood’s forever my friend
But I know…
I’ll see you soon again my friend
The times that we’ve shared been so genuine
Know that you had to go
But you’ll tell me where you’ve been
‘Cause I’ll see you soon again my friend
And I’ll see you soon again my friend
The times that we’ve shared been so genuine
Know that you had to go
But you’ll tell me where you’ve been
‘Cause I’ll see you soon again my friend
Know that you had to go
But you’ll tell me where you’ve been
‘Cause I’ll see you soon again my friend
-Suicide Machines
So there’s something going on, but I don’t know what, I don’t know how to explain it. It has been making me zone out and feel melancholy. I don’t know.
So today was dull, I printed off like 25 of these Anarchist papers to pin up in places. I got a few up at the gas station then headed out. I started a Myspace group for Kenosha based group. Should be good, but who knows. I read a bunch of Abbie Hoffman’s “Steal this Book”, lot of good tips. I need to go out and buy some washers, then my pal taught me how to cheat vendor machines and get your dollar back.
So I called people, nothing happened. Talked to Megan and asked if she wanted to hang, there wasn’t a real answer but then Mike called, said we’d hang and I headed over. Then Megan said I was taking her to the fireworks, so I ended up ditching Mike in the oddest way without meaning too.
So we got down there, Megan and walked down the strip to the lighthouse by the condos, only to eventually run together to Kennedy Drive. We all sat on the rocks, we met up with her friends, and watched the fireworks..which sucked.
All in all, I had fun because I haven’t hung out with Megan in like a year, but I think Mike is pissed at me.
So it’s now the second month of Summer, and today sucked, well, not like I had anything else to do than what I did.
At 10 some people came to look at the house, so I had to help my mom clean and stuff, then they came like half an hour early. So I took the dogs around, got bored and waited for them to leave. Then I was home for a little and left to take my mom for a doctors appointment around 1230, we went to Big Star and got food, then I dropped her off at the Hospital 30 minutes early. So I though I could kill time at the Library, but the place is really small compared to the others. I found a book, it’s about Chomsky.
Got home and sat doing nothing…went to Jeff’s and was bored.
Got home again. Steff came on and started talking to her, still am. She’s all confused with stuff, so to help with it she asked if we could ‘take a break’ type of thing, I am for it because I really like her and I want her to be able to do whatever it takes so she can figure things out.
So there hasn’t been much going on this week, so I haven’t blogged.
Last night Brian and I hung out with his pal Mike, Mike is an emo kid but not a scenster. He’s pretty kickin’ at the drums and he isn’t some stupid moron. We sat at his house and watched the Punk O Rama 10 DVD, then headed down to the lake. On the way there Rachel and Kailee (spelling? =X) were sitting outside Common Grounds, we waved. So I parked and we started to walk, bored, and Rachel called my phone. So we hung with those two all night talkin’ down by the lake, it was fun.
I told Krystal I would help her move on Saturday, so I gotta get to her house at 9, I get pizza out of it. They’re going to play Halo…but I’m not too crazy for it any more.
On Friday I went to the doctor, I guess they wanted to see me after I finished my mono medication. Turns out I am fine, well not fine but good for having mono, and I can interact with society finally. Yay! I was at the brink of jumping off my roof because I was so bored. So I rested up, and around 8 I went over to Steff’s and we watched Harry Potter. She also got a puppy so we played with it; I don’t know how to spell the kind of dogs name.
I got home and basically crashed out, I was tired.
So I slept until about 10 yesterday, but I originally woke up at like 4:30. I sat around bored, and then around, 2 I think, Steff called and I hung out with her and her pals because it was one of their birthday’s. We went to the beach, walked around, I almost fell in the water because I felt so fatigued I couldn’t stand. Then we went to Marina Gardens for some food, then to this Mystery Thrift shop. I had to get home at 5, saw Steff off and headed home.
I didn’t eat, I just slept. Woke up at 8 and talked to Steff, argued with Steve about Capitialism and society, then he went to bed. Steff went to bed, I stayed up for another hour and went to bed.
I woke up and kept going back to sleep randomly. Finally got up and found a good template for nmdmatt.com, then just sat around bummin’ it.
Mono sucks; that is what.
So let me rewind my past week, all last week I was pretty tired and didn’t feel like eating much, I thought I was jusr dehydrated and such. Come Thursday I noticed I had a bump on my neck near my ear on my neck, I ignored it. On friday I had other people feel it and they didn’t know what it was. Saturday I worked, noticed I was real tired, Abi thought maybe it was my lymph node. Sunday rolled around and I just laid around sick, thought I just had a cold. Monday I forget what I did, but oh wow was my throat swollen. I went to the doctor after noticing I was in extreme pain and they took a strept test, I failed, so they took blood. THe test came back showing I have mono. Oh joy. What a way for my summer to go, mono-tized. But we figured that I was contagious already and now I am just sick. I figure I was contagious Saturday, Sunday and Monday. My parents think Friday I was, but I didn’t feel sick at all, all I noticed was the bump. Now I am drinking some dieters drink so I can get nutrition (thanks Brian’s mom for the idea) since I can’t eat.
So, I don’t get to see Steff until friday or saturday :(. But atleast this week happened to be the one Brian was at Fascist Camp, so I am not missing too much. I’d probably be just as bored half the time.
I also found out Lynn took my favorite hat to Warped Tour…which kind of pissed me off. It could have gotten lost so easy, especially since she went crowd surfing. I guess the lead vocals from Hawethorn Heights added their pin to my collection, I’m tempted to burn my hat now. I was successful at getting my movies back though, but Leah has my hat. Grumble.